December 12th, 2011 | Author: trancejen
Heeeeeey.
I didn’t close comments to be a snot, by the way. Comments just automatically close on entries older than fourteen days.
So where have I been? Touring Europe? Spending a little time on Martha’s Vineyard? Fiji, maybe?
No. I have instead been one of those sad, pathetic women who gets into a serious relationship and goes directly into a cocoon.
I don’t even know myself anymore.
We’re not going to talk about that, though; because it’s disgusting – I have become part of a disgusting couple that is so ridiculously in love it’s nauseating – so instead let’s talk school.
Whilst in college, I: A) worked two jobs, B) was starving myself to a truly alarming degree and living on diet pills and caffeine, and C) was off of my meds.
This made for a pretty decent GPA during my first two years of school, because I was hyper-focused (I did, however, flunk Micro-Economics in a stellar manner because it was an early class that I never attended), but by the time junior year rolled around I was completely manic and burned out. I dropped several classes.
Upon logging into Purdue’s website today, I found a notice that as of 1996, I was deemed ineligible for financial aid due to all this class-dropping and fucking around. Now I don’t know whether this is still going to hold true this year or not, but I hope to God not, or I’m screwed.
I’m really excited about the prospect of returning to school, and it would suck quite mightily if it all went up in smoke due to a lack of financial aid.
I cannot be off of my meds, ever. The world just goes to shit without my little sanity pills, and the universe has proven this to me time and time again since I’ve been fifteen years old.
I would do well to remember this.
In other news, B. likes to try interestingly-flavored nicotine solutions for the e-cigarette, or as I call it, the “smokey box”.
I like the chocolate mint. I like the ultra-mint. I do not, however, like the clove, the coffee, or the strawberry, which as far as I’m concerned tastes like Strawberry Ass.
Recently he ordered French vanilla, and I reluctantly loaded up my little smokey box to give it a try.
He looked at me expectantly. “Well?”
I coughed. “It’s like smoking a scented candle. A fucking Yankee candle.”
I’m sticking to the mint.
I don’t know whether you’ve seen the movie Velvet Goldmine, which is sort of a mock-umentary of the glam rock era, focusing particularly on characters based upon David Bowie and Iggy Pop, but I highly recommend it.
I think I liked it primarily because it led to conversations like this:
“Johnathan Rhys Meyers is way too pretty to be a guy.”
“That’s why Iggy Pop is in bed with him.”
“Well, I think we know who’s the butch and who’s the bitch in that relationship.”
“Yeah, I think I see Iggy as more of a giver than a taker.”
“Yeah, but look! He likes to spoon! Iggy is sweet.”
Regardless, it’s a good flick.
I would also like you all to know that I have purchased exactly one Christmas gift. One.
Santa: 10,367,298,102. Jen: 1.
I also have not baked a single cookie.
How is your Christmas coming along?
Happy Monday.
Since we celebrate Christmas in July, this time of year is virtually stress-free for me. It’s sad to me to watch those around me stress/freak out over a holiday season that is meant to be, well, a celebration, not an endurance test.
Anyway, I’m glad you took a moment out of kissy-face to say hi to your peeps. So thrilled that you’re in love. It’s very cute!
I hope you still qualify for financial aid; going back to school would be so great.
Jen, I work for a small community college and we have a financial aid appeals committee. If you are being turned down, ask if there is an appeals process. You will be asked to provide a good bit of documentation but it would be worth it to get your financial aid back.
I kinda wondered if you were occupied with your lovely boytoy and now I see that is indeed the case. How wonderful for you two lovebirds! I think it’s great that you have rekindled your relationship from the past and enjoying each other so much. I’m a little jealous truth be told. I wanna be in love/lust too *whine*…
And congrats on going back to the University to finish out your degree. I admire anyone that has the focus and drive that it takes to pursue a college degree. I only got as far as a year and a half myself but found the math classes required to become an architect were just too damned confusing even with a tutor. I did make all “A’s” in my math classes but the knowledge just never stuck in my brain after my tests were out of the way. Kinda hard to be an architect without any real math skills although now a days with AutoCad programs all you really need to do is plug in the numbers and it’s pretty much done for you.
Have fun Christmas shopping and baking cookies my dear. It’s obvious that you are soooo in the mood to get them done. Bleh Bleh Bleh on that I say.
Oh and BRAVO to you for sticking to the non-smoking ! E ciggies don’t count so you are a non-smoker now in my eyes.
Love to you sweetie !
– John in Tucson
Thank gog – I always get worried when you don’t post for an extended amount of time that something bad has happened. Glad to hear that something good has instead!
Oops. That would be thank god – not thank gog. Although I kind of like the idea of an all-powerful gog.
Congrats on the relationship, Jen. I’ve been rooting for you for years. Since I have FuckBody (I’m going to borrow your term), I haven’t bought a single gift unless you count an early set of books from the book fair last week for my son. He knows it was an early present, so I guess I’ll take it as one. I have changed the wreath on my front door and pulled out exactly 2 small decorations. I do have lights around one window, but they’re there year round since I hate the overhead lighting in the room and the lamps are too bright too for movie watching. I doubt very seriously I will pull out any more except for the the small fiber optic tree we have dubbed “The Pink Floyd Tree.” I’m just not into it this year at all. Christmas has always been my least favorite holiday and now that my son is so much older, it’s damn near impossible to fake it. I think he’ll be out of town with the extended family I can’t tolerate for actual Christmas so I can yank a stocking out while he’s gone and call it good. I’m just so over the gimme this gimme that attitude that Christmas now invokes. It’s not the way I was raised and my divorced parents made the day so WONDERFUL my entire childhood and adolescent years. Between the insults, fights and tears I have no idea what Christmas means to me anymore other than a day I would rather just sleep through or drink copious amounts of Lambrusco and watch nothing but chick flicks. Only Christmas movies I’ll make an exception for is Love Actually and The Holiday. God, I sound like a horrible Scrooge. By my son going away, he’ll be with a lot of people, be in a beautifully decorated holy expensive house and go to church and all that stuff Christmas was when I was 5ish? This could very well be my Grandfather’s last Christmas too, and since I can’t drive that far due to FuckBody (coining your term again), at least my son can be there. That’s important. I’ll probably hit Meijer in the middle of the night next week and call it good on the gift buying too. My disability hasn’t gone through yet, so there is no budget for Christmas. Sad. Wow, I just told a story there – didn’t I? Sorry. You’re just too easy to talk to! I hope you and J-Man and the rest of the family (including the grumpy old man) have a wonderful Christmas. And screw the baking… it just takes too much time where you could be snuggling with your love.
I am so unprepared for Christmas that it makes me laugh. HAHAHA!
Hey, at my university, for people that have been out of school for a long time (I think it’s 10 years or more) we have a “forgive everything” policy, which would mean that you would get your financial aid at my school. They might have something similar at Purdue. Speak to the Registrar and the Financial Aid office. Even if it doesn’t have such a policy, there is the appeals process that Lisa above mentions. I’m on the committee at my school that reviews these, and we get lots from adults returning to school, and we almost always grant a clean slate.
I would like to agree with the above posters about the financial aid. The key thing is to make sure your Student Loans are in a ‘good’ standing and you have proper documentation for any sort of financial aid questions. You will probably go through an appeals process and probably be admitted on financial aid probation. Financial aid probation means once you have a successful semester with passing grades your aid will continue. The other thing to check into is if they have academic amnesty if you had a bad semester you want off your record. All schools are different. Good Luck with it all.
Colleges are desperately wanting students like you to attend. So I feel sure that you will we welcomed back with open arms. And what a good example for the JMan, too!!