March 24th, 2010 | Author: trancejen
Don’t worry, I am still not smoking. I just thought I would compile a few facts that I have learned during the nine days I have been without my beloved squares.
Let’s do one for each day, shall we?
9. I can be the biggest bitch in the world. Seriously. Just try me. I will hurl a hamster at you. (long story)
8. When I am irritable I want sex and am not above blogging about it. *shame shield*
7. I have had to seriously, seriously cut down my caffeine intake. This is probably a good thing, or I would be Flying Off Of The Walls.
6. I have all this SPIT in my mouth! Really! I didn’t think I had a particularly dry mouth before, but all of a sudden there is a plethora of spit there that certainly was not there before. It feels… strange. I sort of understand why people spit now, not that I would ever do such a thing.
5. I don’t know what to do with my hands, therefore I have been typing and typing and typing. If you are my Facebook friend, I am heartily sorry for you. I have Facebook diarrhea.
4. I managed to lose weight (six pounds) my first week of quitting smoking, but I chalk it up to stress. Plus, it was the weight I’d gained in Green Bay, so it doesn’t really count.
3. I really do hate the smell of cigarettes now. My mother lights one up, and I go into the next room. They smell awful. Did I really smell just like that for twenty-one years? Ugh.
2. The patch helps TREMENDOUSLY, IF you’re using the right dosage. When I was on the wee small patch, it didn’t do much, but now that I am on the big honkin’ patch, it really is helping a lot. Thank God.
1. I have a lot more energy and am a lot less likely to just SIT. This is probably the best benefit to not smoking. Before I could sit and catch up on my Tivo and smoke the day away, and now I am much more likely to DO something.
Thanks to all of you for sticking it out with me during the Quittening. I’m sure there will be more maddening cravings and freak-outs to come!
Happy Wednesday.
I am REALLY, REALLY proud of you! You are strong and amazing. It’s inspiring and I may have to do some thinking about Quittening myself. Keep rockin’ it.
You’re doing great Jen!!! My bit of assvice (from experience) is try drinking a full ice-cold glass of water, as cold as you can get it if you get a crave and distract yourself for 10 minutes. Wierd as hell, but it worked for me and a few other people I know. Don’t have any idea why.
I am drinking a lot of water, and finding it to be really helpful! Not assvice at all!
Thank you both! And AMy, you can totally do this!
Dearest love of my online life…
You DON’T want a cigarette. You DON’T want a cigarette *and repeat as often as necessary*.
Let me remind you of the evilness of the demon weed – I can no longer breath and will probably need to go on oxygen at the ripe old age of 45 because of my smoking “Ultralight” cigs since 1974 (yeah, I was 14). I can’t sleep at night because my bodies entire concentration is set at trying to draw a breath in through my horribly scarred and clogged lungs. I am no longer able to work because walking across the room makes me run out of breath. I STINK of cigarettes. STINK. And I was also just diagnosed with Emphysema due to this stupid filthy EXPENSIVE uneccesary habit. Keep using the patch and the cravings will become more manageable.
Or you could become a Nun. I have never seen a Nun that smokes. Ha !
One of the main reasons that I am attempting to get on SSDI is because I have ruined my health smoking. RUINED. Damnit. And I used to be one hell of a Tenor that could make people stand up for an ovation almost every time I sang. No more…
DAMNIT !!!
So,let us recap this little ditty…
I DON’T want a cigarette…And repeat until you need to kill a hamster, then repeat it again.
Love you sweetie – Be strong !!!
John in Phoenix (I’m also on facebook under John Birmingham)
P.S.
You have more saliva now because your body is prompting you to *spit out* ewww the bad stuff in your lungs and it will continue for quite a spell I’m sorry to say. That’s OK though – Trust your body and know that it is trying to help you get through this madness. You are gonna win this horrible race I promise. And breath breath breath for those of us that no longer can.
Cheers !
John in Phoenix
That’s awesome you are already seeing benefits. It will help you in difficult moments.
As a little more motivation, not only did you smell like that when you smoked, you probably smelled a little like that when you didn’t smoke. (I’m working on generalities here, not particular memories – the one time I met you there were a *lot* of smokers around.)
I can ride in an elevator with a coworker and tell when they’re coming in from a smoke break, and when they used to let people smoke in bars, whenever I spent an evening in one I’d come home with my own hair and clothes smelling of smoke.