I feel so depressed today.

I shouldn’t, I know. My improved vision seems to be lasting, which is fabulous, but the rest of my health has gone to shit during the month of June. I’ve been passing out like mad, even though I have been eating right and not vomiting at all.

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Maybe the vomiting was helping.

Heh.

My doctor said the dizziness was from the fibromyalgia, but it seems to somehow be tied in with my period. Before and during the curse I am in seriously bad shape. This week alone I have passed out about ten times.

I just want to fucking get on with my life, you know? I want to not be living in my mother’s basement. I want a job. I want to be able to drive, but I damn sure can’t drive if I keep passing out every damn five minutes.

The Da Vinci Code divx I just want a life, you know? A life with my own place and job and social life. A life for my child. An independent life.

Today my back is fucking killing me because I was stupid and helped the tile guy move the refrigerator and stove. I’m tired and crabby and I feel like nothing’s ever going to change.

I know it isn’t true, but this week I totally feel stuck. I feel like there is so much that I could do if only I wasn’t limited by this traitorous body. I feel trapped inside this skin.

• Kiss Of The Vampire aka Immortally Yours divx

I want to be healthy. That’s really all I fucking want. The rest will take care of itself.

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I don’t know, maybe I’m just being whiny.

Have a great fourth of July weekend.

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